gay mood, earlier. And I was presented with a bit of a dilemma.
Actually, now I think of it. Two.
I’ll start with the one behind this post.
There’s a boy man in my life, right now. No, not like that. Well. No. Not like that. But, he has the potential to be. And his picture has been distributed within my group of friends in the past, and well, they decided he wasn’t much to write home about. Which I wasn’t offended by, because, I slightly agree. Based on looks alone, I probably wouldn’t give him a second third fourth look.
But I’m drawn to him. We have a connection. I really don’t know what it is. But there’s something. I wonder if it’s because he was the first man with homosexual tendencies I got to know with the potential of relationshipness. All the others were friends before, and are practically family now, so a relationship with them would be out of the question. Not to mention, the fact that they have other halves. But this guy was just another homosexual man who wasn’t a friend before I knew he was gay.
The second thing, that has come to light today – actually I’ve known about it for a while, but never really thought about it too much – is that I go through phases of gayness. I’ll be honest, and it’s probably a TMI moment, but, I lose all interest in homosexuality, fellow homosexuals, and generally anything homosexual (have I used that word enough times, yet?) after I have masturbated. Which leads me to a worrying discovery…
When – yes, when, not if (Scary!) – I reach the stage of a homosexual (there it is again!) relationship and the whole sexual intercourse bit and stuff, like, when we’re finished, and we’re having a cigerette, panting and such, will I have an unfightably strong urge to either kick him out of bed and tell him to come back in a few days, or will I leave an IdleBacon-shaped hole in the door, in hast of escaping the situation?
Does this mean I have embarked on a life full of one night stands, because I scare the man off every time? Or what? I don’t know…
Comments on: "I was in a bit of a…" (2)
To be fair you’ll probably both fall asleep before anything anti-homosexual happens.
Ps. Don’t smoke.
See from the perspective of a fellow porn watcher and on the subject of frequent bouts of no, im not gay to really yes i am tendencies, i used to often have moments of “I am disgusted by the idea of anything gay!” once you have done the sex bit though it all becomes much simpler to understand! You will only be disgusted by it when you
A – Dont get any
B – Have bad sex
C – Get hurt… or an STD/STI
Much love.
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